my life follows a certain tree of authority which I strive to uphold, yet cannot comply to.
first and above all, I place God. Or at least that's where I try to place him, every once in a while.
next comes school. A man's most valuable asset is his knowledge. It gives him power; knowledge IS power. The ability to learn new things is an amazing opportunity and should never be passed up. Yet sometimes I waste my time...I'm only human.
after those come the usual - work, family, friends, P.m. Dawn (sorry guys...I love ya). And all these things I still put above my own needs; sleep, food, bills.
so why do we do it all? Why put all of our time, effort, and life into something that we can't even hold onto forever? Why strive for perfection when its impossible to achieve perfection? Will I ever be good enough to satisfy the world? Will I even be good enough to show that my life wasn't a waste???

It really doesn't matter to me....sometimes life takes a hold of me and tears me apart inside. But when I step back and think about it, all the things I worry about aren't reality...its the surreal. To me reality is a waste of time. Take a look around and tell me what you see about the world! The reality is that the world is pretty screwed up so I prefer to stay away from it. I guess you can say "reality used to be a friend of mine" too. I can't stand all the hate, lies and killing in the world today, so I shut my eyes to it....and I live my life according to the only few things that are REAL to me. God, my girlfriend, knowledge and family......that's when the surreal meets reality. When you block out the world and look at the real love in your life, nothing else really matters....it becomes almost surreal.........